I wasn’t going to do the one word for 2013. Perhaps it was because I didn’t want to sit down and put effort into finding a word. Perhaps its because finding one word has become such a popular thing to do, and I have a weird aversion to popular things. (Simply put, if its popular or trendy at the moment, I want to steer clear of it. Yes, my name is Jenn, and I’m weird like that.) Never mind that I had Hope in 2008 and Authenticity in 2010, I had no plans to participate this year.
But here’s the thing.
God often has other plans, and even when I don’t plan on doing something, He’ll show me over and over again that He intends something different. Its starts off as a soft nudge, then if I’m not paying attention (and most times I’m not), it becomes a full-blown shout and I can’t possibly ignore it.
Enter 2013 and my word. Courage.
I started inserting the word Courage into my prayer. And it was nice that I was praying for it, even if it terrified me to my soul (still does), but I certainly didn’t expect it to turn into more.
Then Courage kept showing up in other aspects of my life. In the form of a song, a devotion, a commercial, a book, and this past Sunday, at church. Courage. Ok, God, I get it. There’s going to be a theme this year.
I don’t know what 2013 holds, I don’t know what He intends to teach me about Courage. I know I’m scared. I can only imagine the circumstances in which I need to show Courage. And since I have an overactive imagination, my mind has already gone to some scary places. Looking up the word Courage, I found that Fear is one of the autonyms for my word. Ironic much?
Courage is not a word I would have chosen for myself or this year. Quite honestly, its not a word I would have picked up once, let alone take a second and third glance at it. But that’s how I know God has intended this word… for me… this year. At this point, all I can do is listen and obey, and pray the actual act of Courage will show up in me eventually.