Wednesday, June 19, 2013

A Restlessness, A Calling

This past year a restlessness has settled in my spirit.  Its hard to explain, but I’ll do my best.  I’ve felt this pull, this call, this feeling that something is happening in the world.  As though we’re standing on the precipice of something big.  And the question has been rolling around…  Will I be ready? 
Most of my adult life I have wondered what it looks like to be a Christian woman in this world, in this culture.  Its not as though Christians are welcomed with open arms by the outside world, and I don’t want to get into the whys but if you’re interested, here’s a great place to start.  I’ve wondered.  How does one follow Christ, remain relevant in this world, and balance grace, with the pursuit of holiness?  I’m no closer to an answer, but it’s at the base of most of my questions. 

Within the past six months, I feel like God has started a work in me.  First with the word, Courage.  A word that still terrifies me to my soul, but I feel He is using that word to teach me a lot about myself.  Some of its good, but most of it is not pretty.  Quite ugly actually.  And we’re only halfway through the year.

Then about a month ago, my mom mentioned author, Lisa Bevere.  And her latest book, Girls With Swords.gws-header
I’ve never heard of her or read one of her books before, but when I opened the cover and read the synopsis, the following literally leapt off the page and burned itself in my mind.

Worldwide, women are the targets of prejudice, sex trafficking, abuse, and even gendercide.  Lisa Bevere writes that these attacks say more about who women might be in the future than who they have been in the past.  In Girls with Swords she explains a spiritual enemy is seeking to disarm women on every level.  It’s time women become the heroes God created them to be and stand—courageous, discerning, forgiving, and wise.

It made me pause.  I haven’t read the whole book yet, I’m waiting for my turn.  But I can tell you the first two chapters sucked me in and I’m thirsty to read more.  Are we, as Godly women being called to stand like we’ve never stood before? 

Then today…

I read Raechal Myers blog and clicked over to the corresponding site.  I scrolled through IF:Gathering and wanted to weep.  I’m starting to feel like the pieces I’ve been pondering for over a year are starting to fall in place.
Our generation of Christians is different. We are not satisfied with comfortable life. We don’t trust it. We want more. We want to be…uncomfortable. Because we know our discomfort is a sign of growth. And it’s a sign that we are stepping into the audacious dream that God has for us.  -Lindsey Nobles

Is it any wonder that I got goosebumps today?!  Think of it, our God is an amazing God… working every single, minute detail to the nth degree.  A couple of Sundays ago, our pastor talked about how God had worked EVERTYHING in history, from the Book of the Law to cultural  differences, to have that one moment between Jesus and the Samaritan Woman at the well.

If God can move heaven and earth for one moment between himself and a scorned woman, can you imagine the details He would work out, the lengths He would go to, to bring HIs daughters together for “such a time as this”?!  I’m a firm believer that nothing happens by accident.  I believe He works out every interaction, every detail, every circumstance for a greater good.  His plan, His story, His blueprint.  And there are other women out there who are feeling the same stirring, same urgency as I am.  Not by accident.

A few weeks ago I asked Jon, “Which terrifies you more?  Failure or living outside of God’s will?”  I’m terrified of both, but living outside of God’s will for my life is the one that paralyzes me.  Regardless of whether or not I get to attend this conference next February, I am certain of one thing…
God is calling a new generation, men AND women.  What if Lisa Bevere is right?  What if women are being targeted, not for who they were in the past, but for the force they’ll be in the future?  Is now the time to live out the calling God has placed on our lives?  Are you ready?  Am I?

Because this…

We are starting a raw authentic and community-driven movement. We are a generation who craves the uncomfortable – we will wrestle with hard questions and not know all the answers. We will invest in one another and represent the Church to a generation that needs God.

There is a restlessness among the next generation of women, who fear more than anything – wasting their lives. –
IF:Gathering Site

… is calling out to me.  And I wonder if its calling out to you too?


Timmarie said...

I read Jen Hatmaker's IF post...and I want to be there in February!

Momof4Girls said...

Jenn, this is sooo good!! Along with you and Kisa Bevere, I have felt for the last two years that God is sifting us, His bride. Are we ready?! Are we lukewarm?! Will we stand up?! Will we fight the good fight??! It is no accident that more and more Christian speakers and authors are feeling the same urgency and the restless calling to be equipped!! Scary in some ways, but exciting too if we TRULY want to be used by Him!! Love you, honey!!:)

Lenette Sparacino said...

I have had this exact pull for the past several years. God is up to some BIG things is what I feel is happening!

Kelsey said...

Love this!! I don't even know exactly how to put it into words, but this post stirred something up inside of me that was both exciting and convicting. I'm ready to go to Texas in February! ;)

Jordan Gomez said...

Goosebumps. It's so hard to answer gods calling but so easy to ask him for help.... I wish I was better I wish I was more faithful! As this baby grows inside me I pray god calls me more than ever so I can be a good Christian mother. Thank you jenn for your words, thoughts, fears, and love. You're making a difference you are gods angel!

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